If I Don't Cry (Demo)

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If I Don’t Cry is one of two demo tracks sung by Robbie Williams on the original cast recording of the Royal Shakespeare Company’s 2019 musical The Boy in the Dress. Written with Guy Chambers, it is performed in the stage show by the character Dennis as he grapples with the pain of his mother leaving home. Williams’s version, released with the soundtrack, presents the song in an intimate, piano-led arrangement that highlights his emotional range and phrasing.

The ballad represents a pivotal moment in the musical, balancing vulnerability and strength. Its central lyric, “If I don’t cry, I’ll break inside,” captures the conflict between outward resilience and inward sadness. The restrained orchestration and Chambers’s delicate string writing underscore the poignancy of Williams’s performance, reminiscent of his earlier reflective songs such as Feel and Love My Life.

Reviewers of the cast album noted how naturally Williams’s demo sits alongside the stage versions, his voice offering a template for the lead actor’s delivery. The song’s emotional honesty reflects the broader tone of The Boy in the Dress, in which humour and self-acceptance are grounded by moments of genuine heartache. As part of his first major venture into musical theatre composition, If I Don’t Cry demonstrated Williams’s ability to translate personal sensitivity into a theatrical context.

Though written for a young character, the song’s universal message about emotional honesty resonates strongly with Williams’s own themes of vulnerability and self-belief. Its success as a stand-alone piece helped confirm the depth and maturity of his work with Chambers beyond pop.